I’m documenting my transition period, week by week. Sometimes video, sometimes writing, but every Sunday there’s something new.
This week: starting my new job. Getting my footing with new workflows, processes, and people. I fumbled through setting up my machine which definitely spiked my anxiety, but I expanded my creative outlets building Legos with Teo and got outside to unwind.
The first week of anything is always going to be interesting but I’m glad I’m through that and some of the anxiety is gone.
I’m documenting my transition period, week by week. Sometimes video, sometimes writing, but every Wednesday there’s something new.
This week: Protecting creativity, maintaining connections, and preparing for what’s next.
Wednesday after dropping off Teo, I met up with a friend during their lunch to just shoot the shit and relax a bit. It was good to get out of the house for a bit. I also decided I was going to shoot a small video at my park so I had some of my camera stuff with me and went straight there after lunch. I had this idea in my head and I really wanted to give it a try, maybe I’ll try to fit it into the next video I post.
Thursday morning was a little frustrating. I was talking about holiday plans and if you don’t know…having 2 split households and family that live 5+ hours away doesn’t make for easy discussions sometimes. When I get frustrated and need to vent a bit I usually go between 2 different options: do something creative or do something busy. I kind of picked both and made some cookie dough to let my brain reset.
Over the pandemic I got really into cookies; not just basic things, but the science behind it too. After I made a bunch for a friendsgiving last weekend, I had an idea. I’ve got a friend who runs a cocktail bar in the city and we had loosely talked about cookies and baking and this creative outlet. So I asked him if he’d be interested in me making some cookies for him to taste and maybe if he liked them, he could sell them as a dessert at his place. It’s a lofty goal, but I wanted to see if I could make something like that. Something that could actually sell to his patrons. If it works out, great. If not, I still love his place and will continue to go there (especially because he makes mocktails too).
After messing around with cookie dough, I co-worked with a friend for the rest of the afternoon. We took a break and walked their dog around my neighborhood. It was surprisingly gorgeous outside, so we took advantage of it before getting back and finishing up our work.
I’m still on Thursday (I apologize if this is a lot of info, but it was a long day)…that night was a member screening for RocDocs: a work in progress about women who elect to go flat after mastectomies. It was a really productive session and great discussion afterwards. These screenings remind me why I like being involved in documentary work; it’s not just about the films, it’s about the conversations they start and then the ideas that branch from there.
Friday I met up with my bar-owning buddy and we did a taste test. We talked through the cookies and some potential options for how things could work. I felt pretty good about it. Like I said, I don’t know if it’ll turn into anything, but I’m glad I’m exploring it.
I’m realizing that I need to keep doing creative stuff like this. The cookies, RocDocs, filming, this blog. I’m about to start a new job that’s going to be a lot more logical problem-solving and possibly less creativity. I know I need the financial stability of the work, but I also need the creativity stimulation for my mental stability. It’s going to help ground me when things get frustrating, but it’s also going to help expand who I am. I’m trying to be intentional about staying involved with all of it and hopefully I don’t burn myself out.
Speaking about intentionality, I think this also means I need to change my posting schedule. I think it makes more sense to post on Sundays instead of Wednesdays. With the new job starting, trying to coordinate stuff in the middle of the week is going to be tough and I will likely need the weekend to pull stuff together. So this will be the last Wednesday post. Next thing you’ll see from me will be a video in a week and a half, on Sunday. And then Sundays from that point on.
Let’s get back to my week, or really my weekend. Things were pretty mellow. Saturday I did some bug fixes for Ultivids, some historical data processing for GRADA, and a whole bunch of laundry. Sunday I tried a new recipe for dinner and it was delicious. Basically…it was asian-style dumplings, except without folding and pressing all the dumplings. Instead, you make meat patties, press them onto dumpling wrappers, sear them meat side down, flip and finish by frying the dumpling side in the grease from the meat. Super easy and not as much work as folding 2 dozen dumplings.
Monday I went into the Rivet office to help close some accounts and get things ready for me to not be working with them anymore. It was a little weird being on a different floor in that same building, but it’s always good to see people I enjoy working with. After that I went and played indoor. I was so exhausted by the time I got home that even my toes were tired, if that makes sense.
Tuesday I picked up my laptop from the new job and did some basic account setup. Nothing too crazy. When Teo got to the house he wanted to finish the set he’d started last week, but there was a problem: a piece was missing. We looked everywhere and I mean EVERYWHERE for this piece. It wasn’t a normal piece so we could just replace it with something from his loose legos. This ended up working out as I was thinking about taking him to an unofficial lego store nearby; this gave us an actual reason to go. This place is pretty cool. They have spare pieces you can buy along with new and used sets. The people there helped us find the part we needed, and we also picked up a small set of one of his favorite characters.
Once we got back I reheated leftovers while he finished his set. Then we ate, played a little bit, and started something new: a video of him building. He wanted it to be like an unboxing video mixed with him building and talking about legos. So I got out some camera equipment, some lights, and we recorded a bunch of stuff that I plan to put together into a single video for him. Who knows, maybe that’s something we can do together going forward (and maybe it can fuel his undying need for more lego sets).
And that’s been my week. A bit of the “calm before the storm.” I don’t know what the next few months are going to look like. The job is going to take up a lot of my energy just trying to get acclimated and I know I’ll need the creative outlets. Not as a luxury, but as an essential. Something that keeps me grounded and keeps me moving forward.
With the new schedule coming, I figured I’d end with a new beginning:
I’m documenting my transition period, week by week. Sometimes video, sometimes writing, but every Sunday there will be something new.
I’m documenting my transition period, week by week. Sometimes video, sometimes writing, but every Wednesday there’s something new.
This week: RocDocs advisory board meeting and starting my ultimate frisbee documentary. Met people from my new job, baked some cookies, went to a bunch of parties and social things. More indoor ultimate, trivia, and as per usual, Legos with Teo.
Things are settling into place. Less stressed and feeling a lot better.
Last week was about staying the course. This week things actually moved forward.
Most of the week was pretty typical: get myself out of bed, eat something, tidy up, get on my computer and code or write or research. Just me trying to get myself into some kind of rhythm instead of laying in bed and wasting away.
Thursday I met up with another videographer buddy of mine. We talked about how things are going and what kinds of things we’re working on. I mentioned a documentary that I’m trying to get going in Chicago and he was pretty excited about it. He’s also got some other film friends out that way who would be interested in the shoot, so that was a nice little boost.
Also had a GRADA board meeting that same day. We’re gearing up for our end of the year party and starting to plan for next year. This is also when we do our board and spirit elections so I had to make sure our voting system was ready. All in all, we had a pretty productive meeting and I’m looking forward to what we’re going to be working on for the next year.
Saturday was my day for doing stuff around the house. I cleaned up, sorted stuff, did laundry; all the normal weekend chores. I did bake more cookies again but these were really just for me. Planning to do a whole lot more baking for some stuff happening this weekend. Gonna be a lot of cookies…
Sunday morning I got up and managed to make it out to our last day of ultimate for the season. It was cold, wet, and a little windy. Not really ideal conditions for ultimate but I was happy to be playing. Not happy to be out in that garbage weather, but happy nonetheless.
After the game I went home, showered, and just vegged out on the couch. I was exhausted and after that hot shower…I didn’t want to do anything but rest.
Monday…was a nice changeup from all the stuff I’ve been dealing with. Monday, I finally got a job offer. I’ve been super stressed about the end of November, my old job ending, and having to figure out all of the financial issues. This was definitely something I appreciated. My stress levels lowered a bunch. Not entirely, but a decent amount.
Now there’s different anxiety: new job anxiety. I’m walking into a place where nobody knows me. Where all the history I have currently just…doesn’t matter. And of course now I’m asking myself: Will I fit with these people? Can I actually do this work? The imposter syndrome is real right now.
Still, I felt pretty good all day Monday. I went to indoor and had a much better time than last week (teams were a bit more balanced). Afterwards, I got cleaned up and met some friends for trivia at a brewery. I’ve been sober for a bit and I’m still figuring out how to be in these spaces without it feeling weird and guess what, it wasn’t. I didn’t spend the whole time in my head about not drinking and the people I was with didn’t seem to care. I guess that’s progress.
Tuesday was Teo day. He had spent a bunch of the day outside playing before he got to the house so we just hung out. Played with his Legos, watched one of his favorite shows (which is also a Lego show), and ate some pot roast and homemade biscuits; comfort food for the cold weather.
All in all, this was a good week. I got the job I needed. I’m getting myself back into a good rhythm. Documentary stuff is still chugging along. Things are actually moving now and I’m feeling a lot more positive about what the future looks like.
I’m still working out what these posts should be. Let me know in the comments if there’s something you want me to talk about, or if you’re going through your own transition and want to share.
I’m documenting my transition period, week by week. Sometimes video, sometimes writing, but every Wednesday there’s something new.
This week: Our last day on the 3rd floor after close to 20 years with some of my co-workers. Halloween in the rain. Skipped a tournament, made cookies, had good conversations, started indoor ultimate, and built legos with Teo.
